1. |
Azaleas
04:12
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lay me in a bed of azaleas
help me forgive all of my failures
Im in need of love, not in need of no savior
knees weak, save my prayers for later
grab me a glass, I'm downing this gin and I'm downing this tonic, mix with the chronic, feel nothing else when I'm on it
man this shit is hypnotic
bad habits, robotic, my lungs fill will tar and on snapchat I flaunt
at least I resorted to substance instead of violence
I came up with these plans in midst of the silence
sshh
ease your lips take a rest
there's a very distinctive smell of alcohol and guilt upon your breath
whisper in my ear and nibble on my neck
blinded by lust, I give it all, no regrets
You can be Iverson, I can be your check
Let my guard down, you got nothing but net
So just shoot it. Im tired of these games, why does everything we do need to be so damn convoluted
Its stupid, Im not going through it, gave you 3 chances, you me 3 strikes, ya you blew it
I shoulda knew it when my friends did
shoulda payed more for new lenses
your goodbye was a blessing and a lesson
attachments to demons keep me stressing
why all these anti depressants so depressing
closed my eyes, woke up in a counselling session
lay me in a bed of azaleas
help me forgive all of my failures
Im in need of love, not in need of no savior
knees weak, save my prayers for later
I am miss King, I had a dream
jesus came back and he came right to me.
he grabbed my hand and he lead me to the light
relived my whole life, in a single night
he told me.. young child, hold your tears
release your pain and your fears
life is a game, a house full of mirrors
when I woke up again things had never felt clearer
I'm perfectly fucked and that's perfectly fine
things will get different when you give it time
I am not christian but I have been blind
love is the concept, we’re falling behind
Follow a god, or come follow me
find peace in the forest, the wind and the trees
lay me in a bed of azaleas
help me forgive all of my failures
Im in need of love, not in need of no savior
knees weak, save my prayers for later
Lay me in a bed of azaleas
Lay me down, make no sound
Heart beat rest, eternal peace for you now
Lay me down, lay me down
Lay me down, lay me down
Lay me in a bed of azaleas
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2. |
M.O.E (Pound Cake Remix)
03:36
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18 years, got the bills and they stackin
it's never really been my plan, to pay it off rappin
I'm not saying that I'm the one you need to watch for
I'm saying keep an eye on me like the raptors fourth quarter score
Cause I'm either gonna make it or I'll blow it
there ain't no in between, I'm living for the moment
all these city rappers posted up just like they own it
ya success is real but you ain't earned it till you shown it
I guess that's the life lessons moms been preachin bout
shit you learn yourself, I'm still learning to watch my mouth
I'm still learning to watch my health, I take greens everyday like I think it'll help
my clique bougie,
summer models in the jacuzzi
social media makin life look a movie
but I keep mine original
like orange julius smoothies, sue me
keep my circle small like 6 friends only
2 real, 3 fake, 1 day one and I'm still lonely
you know only 2 outta that crew phone me
that's how I know who my real homies
chorus
yeah, one day Imma have that money, swimming in the moola
shades on during winter, cause you know there's nothing cooler
all these other hoes wanna be me when they see me
run up to curb and I beat em off like breezy
It's easy, to get caught up in the lights and the game
but I won't lose myself
cause Im not chasing fame
I plan to get my money long
there ain't much else to say
I'm just trying get these ideas out my brain
it's funny, how I used to be a wannabe
then I went through puberty, now these niggas wanting me and calling me
I'm steady waiting for apologies
and I'm so damn tired of all of these 2 faced hatin fans, just tryna link up with the bands, talking bout how they was friends, way back before the benz
I really don't buy that shit, keep lies out my life, I'm really not bout that shit
hook
yeah, words raw, cause I'm the real truth
you know it's straight flames, when I'm up in the booth
imma fly my team to paris or peru
working all day and night, it's what you gotta do
mastering my craft and only telling few
put a spin on the words and change your point of view
make you rethink the shit, you already knew
walk around wondering why the fuck the sky is blue
azalea gang got the juice, riding in the coop
azalea gang got the juice, we on the latest scoop
check my twitter, just tryna stay in the loop
don't take to my spot, Imma tell ya to up and scoot
when I told you about this rap shit I was serious
try to fuck with me, I'll finish you, I'm imperious
got all the outsiders staked out trying to peer at us
we in here making real hits, they nefarious
its just the beginning, don't take this shit lightly
Imma be back when my mixtapes done, I'm hyphy
haters stay mad, out here tryna spite me
I don't give a fuck, if you a real g, fight me
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4. |
Lies
03:35
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Without a sound ever heard
Without a lesson Ive learned
You’re foolish and deluding
Too many lies have you burned
So many times, so many lines
So many long days and sleepless nights
You made me blind, I ignored all the signs
You up and left, I tried to make it right
I still loved you in spite of your delusional life
Every word that you said cut me deep like a knife.
I was hooked on the thought of what I’d always wanted
Didn’t realize your infectious eyes would be daunted
I’ve grown a lot since, found peace in a prince
Up my music taste, now I listen to Vince
Now Im sinking in sin, would you have believed me then?
Party sober advocate, turned around the wrong bend.
I guess we all full of lies
With time I recognize that happiness is just some sadness in disguise
I know one day the sun will rise, bring light and peace of mind
The truth will come out, no shadows to hide behind.
Without a sound ever heard
Without a lesson Ive learned
You’re foolish and deluding
Too many lies have you burned
How many lies did you tell me?
How many lies did you tell her?
How many lies did you tell your baby momma before she finally saw what she worth?
Thats the truth and it hurts
I know you don’t like communication or using your words
I know your minds still stuck on the bees and birds
But boy just wrap it before your pockets disperse
cause this is real fucking life
Don’t fuck with girls like that unless you wanna make a bitch your wife
For once don’t be so fucking selfish, take a look at ya life
Ya think a baby gone help this?
Nah ya crazy
Can’t believe I ever thought a fool like you could save me
It don’t phase me, I figured it out in the long run
Im counting all my blessings, I didn’t end up with the wrong one
Without a sound ever heard
Without a lesson Ive learned
You’re foolish and deluding
Too many lies have you burned
Bridges burn to ashes, this is your unmasking
stress built up in my stomach, I subconsciously started fasting
I still remember the day that I kept asking
Why the fuck me, I loved this fuckboy with a passion
All the lies, started running and they started running past him
Sometimes thats how it goes, and nobodys quick enough to grab em
phantom, of my vitality
but a knight came threw and set my soul free
Now I don’t fuck with the lies and they don’t fuck with me
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5. |
Growing Pains Remix
04:30
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Chorus
we stayed moving on the scene from vic to bhood, down to deep cove, so sad you shoulda seen us
we were on that wild child style and the town couldn’t contain us
within a few months my sisters name was famous
maybe infamous but either way you knew about the Gabriel’s
didn’t go by that last name, tried to turn the tables
in my favour, I’ll admit that it never worked out
didn’t have many friends I was so filled with self-doubt
Had a stepdad who hated me tryna belittle every thought
if I see that motherfucker I swear im finna go off
fuck that manipulation bullshit, you should get off the pot
but you a crazy old hypocrite, I guess I just forgot
Tore apart the family, god damn he made me angry
My brother likes that fool, I just cant understand it frankly
He aint a father figure he aint done much shit for us
Not like my mom, working 3 jobs, for us her ass shed bust
Chorus
yeah yeah yeah
shoutout Josh, the first son, I ain’t really got much to say
it’s not like you come around, or give us the light of day
but moms really loves you just wants you to be okay
maybe call her on occasion, what games you tryna play?
shouts to Levi, my big bro till I die
we may fight I may cry but you always stay by my side
Always on your team, you the realest as they come
Anyone fuck with the fam, on god they better run
Shout out to my sister, Latisha, yeah we all miss her
Living by the streets, getting fucked up off the elixir
And then theres young Z, y’all already know about me
in school by day by night high off the tree
we aint models, (hell no)
but thats my fucking team though
yeah we got our problems but you don’t know what we know
We seen a lot of shit, epic longer than Marino
We got bigger dreams, tryna trade Vans for Valentino
Yeah
& littles I swear I aint forget you
Sorry Im so flakey I hope I don’t upset you
keep me in your mind, while im out here on my grind
Probably doesn’t make sense now but hopefully it will in time
Im a sinner, don’t want you to watch me
Always eat your veggies, always listen to your mommy
Please don’t ever think that I don’t want you guys around me
Gotta do my thing so I can be astounding
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yuh,
this that, this that adolescence anonymous yanno what Im saying?
M3music in this bitch, let’s fucking go
Red skies, red eyes/you’re my kryptonite
suicide sunrise/ wanna take my life
anxiety is fighting me/ I can’t fucking eat
only time I feel peace is when i’m asleep
all these demons in my head wishing I was dead/if my friends reach out I leave their texts on read/ things’ll get better that’s what momma and my doctor said/ well I ain’t better when i’m high on these fucking meds (ugh)
Suicide sunrise
looking in the mirror seeing everything that I despise
Im crossing all my T’s/ Im dotting all my I’s
Imma write a note, stay crying to some lullabies
Emotions my disguise
don’t look me in the eyes, cause I know they’ll blow my cover
windows to the soul, whole minds full of clutter
Thinking of ways to clear it
Ask me bout my plans and Im a st-st-st-stutter
Sometimes I wanna die, sometimes I wanna live
then I think of all the fucked up living I already did
I really burned a bridge
I wanna be a role model and inspiration to the kids
But I don’t believe in futures and Im living in the past
I cant look em in the eyes and tell them scars don’t last
Cause kids see the truth and I don’t believe that shit
My only sense of calm is when I take another hit(ah)
(suicide sunrise, suicide sunrise
suicide sunrise, your light is my demise) x2
whisper: “zalea this is the end
give up zalea it’s time
do it, what are you waiting for
zalea kill yourself
look in the mirror Z, why are you stalling?l
come on zalea their all waiting
ZALEA, come on... do it”
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7. |
Pills n Potions
03:23
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life keeps throwing me blessings
but I keep throwing out messes
I’ll blame it all on adolescence or maybe on the smoke
I’m just throwing out guesses
All these mauls leave me breathless
Stayin’ number one on my stress list
when I exhale I’ll regret this
like all a the snakes that i’ve given my friendship
I used to have homies on some fake shit
I was faded and going through phases, my life is a novel I was ripping out pages
my therapist says it’s cause i’m not good with changes
Crying eyes feeling loveless
Trying minds go through numbness
can’t unite into oneness
I got insecurities in abundance
All these drugs is just nonsense
depressed thoughts in my subconscious
One is too many but a thousands never enough
if we’re being honest
Hide paraphernalia in our closets
Bought that shit with our bank deposits
Friday to Sunday, man we go psychotic
Monday to Thursday we stay neurotic
Yeah, uh
Drugs in my system, drugs in my veins
Yeah, uh
Drugs in my conscious, drugs in my brain
Yeah, uh
we off Pills & potions, we making it rain
Yeah, uh
We off pills & potions, we making it rain
I need to win because failures not an option
Gotta break the cycle, put the whole fam on topspin
errybody looking to me, steady watching
Fuck outta my face, I got habits im adopting (whoa)
I really had to switch up on the flow
So fucking high, I don’t know sober anymore
The pressures really building
don’t know how to deal with feelings
All my friends were all my villains
now we mad fucking chilling (aye)
But things won’t ever be the same
Ive seen this shit kill more than take away the pain
washing out my culture, tied to us with chains
government and drugs just creating new slaves
Yeah, just creating new slaves, black on black crime
Got us mentally encaged,
Cant turn on the news cause all I feel is rage
humanity is broken I’m just tryna numb the pain
This shit took my sister away
Crying every night, feeling numb every day
Arvella Avenue seems so far away
I wanna get it through her head, man what can I say?
Ugh, fuck, sis I really I miss you
These drugs changed your mind, why cant you see the issue
My eyes give me away, can I get another tissue
I wanna give you comfort, know I never meant to diss you
Yeah, uh
Drugs in my system, drugs in my veins
Yeah, uh
Drugs in my conscious, drugs in my brain
Yeah, uh
we off Pills & potions, we making it rain
Yeah, uh
We off pills & potions, we making it rain (x2)
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8. |
Arvella
02:20
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young girl, dry your eyes you're a solider
don't ever think you're weak, or listen to what them boys told ya
you are a goddess, a living inspiration
but ya haven't been the same since you been taking medication
It's been 6 months and I'm wondering how you been?
last time I had seen you, you was looking pretty thin
still got the beauty of a sunrise but the lights fading
started thinking you're too far past saving
I try to hate you, but my heart, it just ain't with it
I remember all the good times, when we dancing in the kitchen
back and fourth, we constant bitching
till you was put up in the system
then right before my eyes, I'm forced to witness your demise
that shit really heavily affected me
I'd be lying if I said, I never let it get to me
I'm not taking drugs, don't pressure me
I'll turn it down, respectfully
then go home, light some green and I'll bathe in my hypocrisy
headed to arvella avenue, aint no stopping me
my mission is simple: peace for the children
no child on this earth deserves to grow up in a whirlwind
no child on this earth deserves to feel like a burden
I know your faults stem from the fact you're hurting
I wish you told us sooner, instead of keeping it behind the curtain
you're more than your mistakes, you're way more than worth it
even though you don't see it, to me you've always been perfect
on the cold cold cold nights
I hope you're keeping warm
I wish you were here
you're my perfect storm
it breaks my heart to see the life your living, be your norm
everything you are is everything that I was warned
not to be, but honestly you're all I really want to be, on my mind so constantly, I'd trade lives with you undoubtedly
my mind is so confoundedly
lost without your insanity
opposite attract, I think you're really what's grounded me
to sum this up, sis I really really miss ya
I'm tryna not to cry, as i'm looking at your picture
wishing I could hug ya and wishing I could kiss ya
happy 23rd birthday to my sister
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9. |
Drowning
04:00
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ocked myself in my room
another day another sorrow
sleeping too much, pills knock me out until tomorrow
wake up in the darkness and Im drowning in my sadness
I wish I ran out of tears when I was 18
I wish I ran out of tears, I wish I faced all my fears, I wish things seemed more clear I wish I could see my reflection in the mirror
without crying
and I'm trying to reach out
but when I call, my friends aren't available to speak now
so I just take a number
and then I'll resume back to my slumber
but I don't even sleep I just nap
can't find enough peace of mind to let me rest
so I just close my eyes and lay my hands on my chest until I'm numb to the feeling, I just stare at the ceiling
sights too clouded with all my addictions and demons
And Im screaming in my mind but on the outside Im silent
Grumpy ass kid, who gets in a mood when she’s tired
Thats all they ever said and it’s all they’re gonna say
Got my prescription on lock, so I can stand another day
It’s hard though
puppet on display, top shelf front row
Trying to decipher the critiques and the low blows
wanna get myself out the gutter but Im froze
I wish I could return to the flowers and colour
living life through greys, can't tell the days from the other
smiling is exhausting, can't stand the fake happy
my cerebrals got me fucked up but no one even asks me
cause no ones got me like I got them
no ones ever fought for me like I fought for them but then again
no ones wants to talk to me honestly, fake conversation full of empty words and promises
tell me you miss me but never hit me up
won't ever see you again knowing my fucking luck
think of Dan often, man that shit was rough
trying to make it through the year, you know that it's been tough
using tokes to find some serendipity but it'll never be enough
you know it'll never be enough
but Imma still try
cause I like the high
and I'm still a sad kid but I don't know why
it's all situational, the pain used to be occasional
now it's like a mountain and I can't climb it
but I damn well know, there's a life of purpose behind it
and i'm gonna find it
highlight, cause Im shining
face full of makeup to try and feel confident
darken my eyes, I don't see anything wrong with it
but underneath all of it, I'm still just a poser at best
Delusional, hypocritical, introverted psycho
Who might go, insane from the pain, who’s to know?
Who’s to know, who’s to know?
Who know what my personal be like the best?
Who listen to me cry, bout how everyone I loved left
Who tells me pretty lies
who aint wish me no goodbyes
My modern day bestie, who on the daily just depress me
Every plan we have, is rescheduled till next week
But next week never come so I stay down
make some temporary friends to hang out with for now
but it's all so 17, plastic and paper
nothing's really real, friends vanish like vapor
and once I'm gone everyone gone be talkin bout how "now who could have saved her?”
Who coulda?
locked myself in my room
another day another sorrow
sleeping too much, pills knock me out until tomorrow
wake up in the darkness and Im drowning in my sadness
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10. |
Adolescence Anonymous
04:00
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Yeah
It’s zalea
Moonlight gang you already know
Shoutout, shoutout to the kids going through some real shit right now, I gotchu
Uh, these days are so insane
my mind is like a mixture of sunshine clouds & rain
marks on all on my body, think its gonna leave a stain
Staring in the mirror and my parents think Im vain uh,
& my friends are all my foes now
snakes cut out the grass yanno Im ten toes down
Sorry Im not a cool kid
Sorry Im just a class clown
Sorry Im a time bomb
Im about to go off now
adolescence anonymous
society ain’t never been proud of us
put our opinions to the side just collecting dust
this that, this that adolescence anonymous
adolescence anonymous
There aint a damn thing wrong with us
We are the creators, we’re all made from angel dust
This that, this that adolescence anonymous
school sucks, all my teachers out to get me
Skipping all my classes cause my demons out to temp me
knowledge in the streets, brain chemistry reinvent me
All of my protectors suddenly became the enemy, ugh
I feel hate from within, someone tell me how I’m not s’posed to sin
drugs are cheaper than books moneys so paper thin
How’d I pass all these classes? Im scratching my chin
*break*
lately i’ve been on that fuck responsibilities
I wanna make music living life through auxiliaries
All these grown ups telling me how I outta be
Regulating rules, no drugs no sodimy
the system is really what bothers me
making war instead of art, killing all creativity
they ain’t here for the culture, they don’t see the longevity
yeah i’m from the north but the states is really scarin me
all my dead brothers gunned down for wearing hair like me
kids marching for their lives, I really need some clarity
stress built in our dna
no wonder we all dying from the fentys and the xanys
nigga what else can I say?
adolescence anonymous
society ain’t never been proud of us
put our opinions to the side just collecting dust
this that, this that adolescence anonymous
adolescence anonymous
There aint a damn thing wrong with us
We are the creators, we’re all made from angel dust
This that, this that adolescence anonymous
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Young Zalea Victoria, British Columbia
Zalea is an independent artist based out of Victoria, B.C Canada. She started rapping in 2017. She released her first single 'Mistakes' from her upcoming mixtape in April 2018, she strives to inspire and create in our renaissance. 'Adolescence Anonymous' her first mixtape, will be available June 8, 2018 ... more
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